Monday, October 31, 2005

navel-gazing

well, it worked! putting my poor UFOs on the web succeeded in shaming me into working on them. Over the weekend I put in the sleeves and seamed up Ribby Cardi. Now all it needs is a neckline and a zipper! i wore it around the house in its unfinished state - boy that Lana D'Oro Alpaca is warm.

On sunday morning I met with SpindleRose and other waltham knitters at a cafe. I worked on my Rosedale U again with the new Kureyon. i'm just about ready to join sleeves with body and do the yoke. excitement abounds.

(Saturday, i went to the Fiber Twist. That will need its own post. tomorrow.)

The navel-gazing came when i thought about why i stall aon projects. its most often when i make things for myself. (I'm pretty good at finishing gifts.) The best i can come up with is "fear of failure". I love starting projects. I love to pick the colors and dream about how awesome the finished sweater will be. I love to imagine myself wearing a fabulous finished product. But along the way my inner critic gets loud. She starts to nitpick every detail of the project. i should've used different yarn. a different cast-on. What if it doesn't fit exactly right in the end? what if after all that work, i actually don't like it? 2 sweaters that i knit for myself ended up as gifts to family because i was so over critical that i just couldn't wear them. The first kureyon sweater got frogged. So i think that i get close to finishing and stall because something in me is trying to avoid that self-criticism. if the project isn't really finished, then i can't hate myself for not doing it perfectly, right? there's definitely a disconnect in my brain somewhere.

right now i'm feeling really good about Ribby Cardi. And i'm almost done! maybe i'll break the mental hang-up and finish all my languishing projects. i can dream, right?

1 Comments:

At 11/01/2005 7:12 PM, Anonymous Catherine said...

Hey, it was nice to have you join the cafe gang on Sunday! Usually we get the front corner with the sofa, but someone has been beating us to it the last few weeks.

 

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